Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Oh And By The Way...

*I feel my readers should get a chance to get to know at least once a week I will post a personal blog that will update you on my life or what I'm feeling at the time! Please feel free to ask any questions and I'll always answer the best I can. Let me know what you think and I hope you enjoy!*

Have you ever just had the urge to write? Even if writing isn't your thing. Your sitting there and maybe you hear a phrase and it catches in your heart and makes you really think...or possibly your reading a great romance and the words are practically gripping at your soul to make you actually feel something...well this is my time, so hear me out.

I had a crap day. And as I was coming home I was stewing over it all. I was prepared to sit down and rip the world a new one. But as I sat down and cleared my mind, wiggled my fingers and got them ready to type I felt nothing but thankfulness. Where the heck did this come from?!? I felt overwhelmed with nothing but peace. I know. Odd huh?!? Well so I take this as a message from the big guy above to let a bit out and share the two great thing I'm so thankful for (beside the Big Man himself)!


The first think I'm thankful for is my loving husband Michael. When I was 20 I was totally DONE with guys. They were crap to me and i was sick and tired of feeling that I tried more than they did. I remember telling a girl at work that I just KNEW that the man for me wasn't in Crestview, Florida...little did I know he was only 30 miles down up the road! lol Michael and I met through a mutual friend that he worked with at Boeing. Our first date was a group date and we have seen each other EVERY day since then! lol Michael is 5 years older than I am and he swears that if I was any younger he wouldn't have tried to meet me but WHATEVER! Get this...and I know how crazy this sounds so you don't have to tell me...we dated for 9mths, Michael told me of a job in Georgia that he was up for and in my head I was thinking that we would deal with it if it came to that. Well we played around with the idea of getting married because we were pretty sure he would get the job. We talked about going to the courthouse or having a small wedding or maybe even moving then getting married later. Well Mike bought the ring (he didn't think I knew at the time but I worked at his bank...OMG I know totally horrible of me but we shared bank accounts by then...we worked fast lol) so I knew the question was coming. In the back of my mind I was asking myself "Would he really be asking me this soon if he didn't think he may loose me moving to Georgia?". It was a HUGE ordeal in my head...I didn't tell Michael b/c of course he would say yes he would still be asking. Well we found out a few weeks later the job got offered to someone with a military background. No big deal. Mike asked me to marry him a few weeks later in our bedroom of our town home. The next day the job got offered to him! lol To this day I swear that was God letting me know that Michael was the one for me and that whatever state we may end up he loved me then and will continue to love me forever. Mike is my rock. We moved to Georgia not even a month later and got married 9mths after that! We built our first home together and now have been married and living in Georgia for about 3 years! Hes my best friend and a wonderful provider. Ya know some people say "Oh he gets me"...well Michael doesn't all the time and he will admit to that, BUT he excepts me no matter what and that's the most important part.


I'm not close with my family at all. Getting a bit dad is absolute crap, I could depend on my online friends more than my mom, and my sister...well were ok, she's 31 and I'm 24...lets just say I'm the big sis in the relationship. Now I am however extremely close with Michales family. They are the family everyone should have. They are a 100% loving and caring family. But before Michael and even now my friends have been my family. I have a few wonderful friends I've made throughout my years and I honestly dont know what I wouldve done without them. Recently I have met an elite few through blogging that have totally brought me alive! I laugh constantly at work with these girls and they totally keep me from pulling out my hair! lol I hope these girls know who they are and know their friendship is truly appriciated! :o) I believe the saying that if you can count your true friends on one hand then your lucky. I believe I am truly blessed to be able to go the the second hand!

Told you he's SUPER delicious Wena ;o)


Rowena said...

Awwww, you're too cute. Mike sounds wonderful (too bad he doesn't have a cool brother like him that lives in L.A. dangit) and you may not be super cool with everyone but me and Izzy love you sweetie! LOL.

And HECK YES KRIS IS YUMMY! I watched all of his performances and I nearly swooned with delight. He's yummy, I wanna marry him. Keith too. LOL.

May 20, 2009 at 11:02 PM
Monroe Dawson said...

I'm cool in my own little world! And I heart my Wena and Izzy! lol

Wasn't Heartless and She Works Hard for the Money AWESOME?!?! He super YUM-O!

May 21, 2009 at 3:14 AM
~ames~ said...

Great post Monroe. It's always a good thing to remind ourselves what we're thankful for. :P

And you and your husband look so cute together!

May 21, 2009 at 6:56 AM
Monroe Dawson said...

Thanks hun glad you enjoyed it!

May 21, 2009 at 2:34 PM
Rowena said...

Heck yes it was, I really enjoyed all of his performances...he's so facking hot!

May 21, 2009 at 4:56 PM
Monroe Dawson said...

Ya well like I said either share...or HANDS OFF! lol

May 21, 2009 at 5:52 PM
Isabel said...

Awwww, cute picture of you too. Love the how you met story.

May 21, 2009 at 8:55 PM
Monroe Dawson said...

Thanks Iz! Maybe one day I'll post how he asked me to marry him! LOL its a doozy! He basically found out I had been searching the house looking for the ring so he made me hunt down the ring on my own! LOL Him and my bff were conspiring against me! ;o)

May 22, 2009 at 3:20 AM

just stumbled across your's sooo cute!!

May 24, 2009 at 6:13 PM
Monroe Dawson said...

Atl Bride,
Thanks so much! Wow you live close to me! (I'm over here in Warner Robins/Perry) Everyone I've been meeting has been clear across the US! Thanks for stopping by my blog. Are you perhaps a reader of romance?

May 24, 2009 at 8:28 PM
Stacy~ said...

Hey KristieJ mentioned your blog, so I thought I'd come check it out. Cool place :)

May 28, 2009 at 5:15 AM
Monroe Dawson said...

Thanks a bunch! I hope everyone likes it and stops by often.

May 30, 2009 at 3:57 PM
Tia said...

You're such a sweetie...your life sounds like mine...almost, given the fact that I haven't met the man of my dreams, am still convinced that anything with a penis is evil, vile, and repulsive, and I'm close to my siblings and grandparents. My dad, after 55 years of him acting like a total jackass, is coming around. I think it's about time. My mom (who I love dearly, God rest her soul) passed away a year ago April 24th. That was horrible. Unimaginable. I was the stable one in that relationship, more like sisters (me being the oldest). She used to tell me I have an old soul. After my mom died I signed off on men. My ex and I broke up in Jan. I moved back home. We were trying to work it out (I thought). When my mom died I had to move back in with the EVIL ONE (my dog doesn't get along with my gramma's dog and I refuse to get rid of her). A week later he moved in with another girl who may or may not have his baby. He packed while I was at work and just didn't come back. We didn't talk for months. Forget that I couldn't afford OUR bills by MYSELF. He was a BIG JERK. I was dumb. It's a long story but I was like every other girl, if I loved him enough he'd realize, blah blah blah. He joined the Navy and tried to convince me that he had to stay here for the weekend before he left for boot camp (I didn't know at the time but, turns out ol' girl's husband moved back in so the EVIL ONE was no longer welcome). I let him stay here, but at this point I was determined not to take him back. A few weeks later I got a letter from him. I wrote him the entire time he was in boot camp and spent the weekend with him when he graduated. All the while thinking that he would grow up. I just had to stick around to see it. I was romanticizing in his absence I know, again being a dumbass. He promptly started acting like an lunkhead and failed to mention to me that he was going to be stationed in California. He now is living with some girl he met on Myspace and talked to for the entire 2 years that we were together. He harasses me weekly. Bastard. I guess I failed to mention that I'm still hung up on my ex from before the EVIL ONE. A story for another day, that one. And every other encounter with men has ended in bitter disappointment. It gives me hope to see that you were in the same position I am and now you have your McDreamboat there. :) It was probably TMI and you're thinking "WTF this girl is crazy. She's a nut." I'm not really. I just get carried away on topics I'm passionate about: books, jerks, equality, animal cruelty, bad parenting. You get the picture. Forgive my novella. (hugs) (wink)

June 10, 2009 at 2:27 AM
Monroe Dawson said...

Wow sounds like you've been through a tough time. Ya I had a very though time right before me and my husband met, a pretty destructive relationship that ended horribly! BUT I know if I didn't go through what I did at the time I wouldn't be who I am today. Corny I know but totally true! Guys are so hard to get over...and they suck...most the time. You just gotta hold out for that right one. You never know whats around the next corner. I mean look at my situation I met mike and got engaged and moved within 9 mths! So you never know what can happen day to day. As for your dad, I can totally dad is crap and actually we haven't talked in almost a year (he stood me up on Christmas) and I'm horribly sorry about your mother :*( I couldn't imagine. Hang in there hun!

June 10, 2009 at 3:21 AM
Tia said...

Oh def...I was just surprised and relieved that you were still funny and cute and sweet after all the crap you've gone through. Most people use their experiences as a crutch. That really bothers me. I know some people have it worse than I do. Really. I know that. It's not an excuse though. And I don't want to sound mean but a lot of people need to suck it up. No matter how bad you've got it, it could get worse.

I'm sorry about your dad. My relationship with mine has been an uphill battle. I hope that this is the time he keeps his nose clean, but I've hoped that before and been disappointed too many times to mention.

The ex boyfriend was a jerk. Plain and simple. I devoted too much time and energy. He never deserved me. It was bs what he did. I'm content being single right now. I miss having someone around...but the thing that clued me in on Malcolm (a.k.a. the EVIL ONE) was the fact that I didn't miss HIM, I missed the IDEA of him. Well that and the fact that he's a low down cheating bastard.

I'm so jealous of you and your husband (in a good way) and I want that so bad but I'm not going to rush into anything anymore. I'm taking care of me and I think the good thing that came from the EVIL ONE is the fact that I know what I want, I know what I deserve, and I'm not going to settle for anything less. You can't love a person into changing. There isn't enough love in the world.

My mom was a really good friend. She didn't need to ever be a MOM after I got older, but we were REALLY good friends. I miss her everyday. Sometimes I break my own heart because I still pick up the phone to call her, then I remember why her number isn't programmed in anymore. And I have these stupid memory fests where I try to remember everything about her, from the earliest memory I have to the day my sister and I found her. I'm so scared that I'm going to forget her. That one day I won't be able to hear her voice anymore, or know what she would've said to me in any given situation, or smell her perfume, or see her in my mind without a picture in front of me. Whoa boy. Hello unintentional pity party. I'm okay now. I'm not over it, but I'm okay. She's my guardian angel. You can never have too many angels on your team. You know?

I'm really glad that you got your happy ending! I'll get mine...someday. Maybe it'll be when I'm 40, but I'll get it. And until then, I'm STAYING SINGLE and collecting pets. :)

June 10, 2009 at 3:51 AM
Monroe Dawson said...

We have quite a bit in common..."mommy/daddy" issues! lol

I have two pets, my Australian Shepherd Lando (Lando is from Star Wars lol) and my Tabby cat Sammy (Lord of the Rings) lol

Youll be great and youll find someone. I never expected to meet a guuy like my husband. And ya I am cute, sweet, and funny! ;op j/k...but really I TRY to have a good outlook on life, and my situation wasnt always the best BUT I choose to NOT let it get to me. It does sometimes...Im human but Ill be ok in the end!

June 10, 2009 at 3:02 PM
Tia said...

Exactly. That's admirable. I don't like the whole woe-is-me, oh I'm such a poor poor soul, my life is SO bad, why does all this have to happen to ME people. I want to punch them.

I have more than two viscous pit bull (only in real life she's the sweetest dog in the whole world) Doodet (not my name, my little sister's), my two inside cats Karma and Finster, my two rats Napoleon and Edward (yes they're rat rats, yes they're cute, yes they're clean, both of them are female which we didn't know when we named them, and yes Edward is named after Mr. Sexy Cullen, again my sister's idea), and two fish Zelda and Fiona. I'm crazy for animals.

June 10, 2009 at 3:31 PM